What do you do when your heart has been broken?
What do you do when the one person who you trusted most in this world has let you down?
What do you do when the one who was supposed to protect you, failed you?
After five days I'm still asking myself these questions and I am no closer to any answers. I wonder if trust can be rebuilt. But when you so completely give yourself over to another it is difficult to trust again after it has been shattered.
Does it matter what was said or done that caused you to break? Yes and no. What matters most was that he didn't follow through with what he promised. He was supposed to protect me and he failed. He has not physically or emotionally hurt me or intentionally violated my trust. What happened was not even about the D/s part of the relationship. Yet it all eventually entwines.
Where do I go from here? I do not know. My heart hurts and I feel that I do not want to open myself up so completely to another again. It was something I've always struggled with, fearing of exposing my vulnerability. I was vulnerable and got hurt because of it. I cannot be that way again.
Who am I? I am shattered.
Baby, you have been shattered and I cannot tell you how sorry I am for it. Trust can be rebuilt. I can earn your trust again and will not stop working to earn your trust back. Take hand and take small steps with me. One small step at a time and you will be My Good Girl again.
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